People Dont Care..

So i woke up this morning have an amazing plan to start going to the YMCA. The guy who had emailed me said that they have Fin. Aid that can help you because they will never turn some one away because they cant afford it.. FUCKING LIE!!! of course, i cant quilify because my mom makes to much, and i dont have any income and i cant just go there for free. So again i was turned away because of my Parents. No one cares if my dad hasnt worked in 2 years because his back hurts. No one cares that my mom has money coming out of her check because she didnt pay her Credit cards, No one has simplathy for any of that. Just because you have this huge long story on why we hardly eat any more and cant afford to live a normal life, doesnt mean they give you anything, so there is really NO fucking point in telling any one.

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I dont know what anyone wants from me any more. I cant give them anything. I dont have a job i dont have money  and all i have is the horrible me. Im no good to anyone and its starting to piss me off. Because im always there for everyone else and no one is here for me. Im just the one who makes all the mistakes and gets treated like shit every god damn day. This year was suppose to be better, But it has already started off to be a disaster. Fuck.

Comments

[Amanda Dennis]

Awww, Hey now.
you know you can always come workout with me for free
open 24hours 365 days a year =]

[Jay Sherman]

Ya Know, You should really stop blaming everyone else for your issues. Youre 19, You can go out and get a job. You're considered an adult now and you should start acting like one. You have had way more things handed to you than I could ever imagine. I didn't have a quarter of the things you had. I couldn't even get someone to co-sign for a $3000 loan for a car. Grandma went out a completely paid for your car. Also, you didn't even have to pay your own insurance. Get rid of this "poor, poor me" attitude and maybe things will start looking up. You continue to find someone else to be at fault for your misfortunes. If you want something bad enough, then work for it. You had $6000 surgery done at no cost to you, when you could have instead used the money spent to go to school. Life isn't free, and the people that expect handouts never go anywhere. This is probably going to piss you off, but hopefully you'll take some of it in.